Hi my name is Ellen and I am a blogger. that is how I used to introduce myself but these days my title is way more complicated and it almost stopped including blogger. My blog is as old as my second child, she turns 11 this month. ELEVEN! I have been writing here for 11 years. Sharing things I love, sharing my life and so much more for 11 long years. Over the years my blog has changed a lot, my life has changed a lot. Every time I enter a new phase of life my blog changes with me, that’s part of why I keep at it, we keep growing together my blog and me.
Well I hit a new phase again. Once I again I went WOAH who am I and what is happening in my life? What caused this shift? Really it started when my 4th daughter went to Kindergarten. I now only had one kid at home, my baby, all alone. No gaggle of siblings to keep her company, just her and I and that was a hard shift for us. Sure I loved the one on one time but I lost my time to blog and get things done. She no longer had live in entertainment, it was just me and that shifted things for me at home. No one told me the baby of a big family would really struggle being the last man standing at home. On top of that I took on a new role at the school, playground monitor. That means everyday at lunchtime I am at school watching the kids at recess while the teachers have lunch. This has been a really great thing, but it also took more time from my day and that meant things had to be sacrificed. Four kids in school playing sports and needing homework help, we survived. and that was end of 2017-2018 school year. Summer came, life was blissful and then school started again.
Amid all this I discovered and fell in love with Pure Barre. I started going 5 days a week before school and felt amazing. This truly was one of the best things to happen to me until I hurt my wrist. I had been going for 13 months and my body felt like it had not since my teens. I felt strong and healthy and it was a great stress reducer and then all the sudden I had constant pain. After multiple misdiagnoses it was decided my wrist needed serious rest so I had to quit Pure Barre. I cried, judge away if you must, but Pure Barre was my stress reliever, my sanity saver and it went away. I hoped to get it back but by the time my wrist truly healed it had been 6 months and I just could not justify the monthly cost (5 kids are expensive). I have never found anything that worked so well for me and still am not exercising (since I quit in March) pretty pathetic. I miss it greatly and did just get an elliptical off a buy sell trade site which is making a very ugly climbing gym for my kids (I had great aspirations to use it every morning before the kids get up). Here’s hoping I find my motivation again.
Now that I rambled down that tangent we arrive to this past Fall when I decided my life was not crazy busy enough with one kid still at home (did I mention I home school preschool while taking her to 15 billion classes and activities?) I added a part time job with my parish. You may be thinking, wow you are crazy and you run a blog, why? Because being a stay at home mom is my passion. It is what I long to do and where I love to be and if that means I work multiple flexible part time jobs so I never miss anything, not a school presentation or a sick day, then that is what I do.
So here we are heading into a new year and I have hardly had any time to blog the past few months. More than that I have not had things to blog about because I got so busy. My hope for 2019 is to find time again to cook and craft and live life a little more (and then blog about it) without loosing being present in the moment. I did really dig deep and put down my phone the last part of 2018 and that was great too, but it meant I didn’t document things I wish I would have. The last time my husbands grandmother was with us before she died this month I didn’t get any photos because I was too busy being present and now it’s too late. Balance, always striving for it, ever being eluded by it!
2019, let’s do this!