Love is patient
Love is kind
It is not jealous
Love is not pompous,
It is not inflated
It is not rude
It does not seek its own interests
It is not quick-tempered
It does not brood over injury
It does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth.
It bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
Somewhere along the way I forgot these things. Most importantly I forgot to rejoice, to not be quick-tempered and to not seek my own interests above all else.
Being a mom is hard and it can be really draining. Yes it is so, so rewarding but what about the times when you don’t feel rewarded? How are we supposed to handle those moments.
Honestly I am not sure. I am 10 years into this gig called motherhood and I still feel like I fail each and every day. I used to be able to rise above those moments and still feel the good and feel the love, but lately it’s been harder.
I used to think parenting would get easier as the kids got older, now I realize how wrong I am. My biggest issues used to be time and need. I never had enough time to fill all the needs of my little people. Now my issue is words and feelings and tone of voice. A rude or sarcastic word from me can cause an avalanche of repercussions.The feelings are so raw and real as kids grow and acknowledging them can be exhausting in a whole new way.
LOVE IS PATIENT
I kind of feel like I need that written on every surface in my whole house. I need the reminder because patience is not my strong point.
I truly believe God gave me each of my kids to help me be a better person in a different way and right now patience is the lesson I am supposed to be learning, but man is it a hard one.
Through all of my self loathing and criticism for mishandling situations the one thing that keeps coming back to me is to choose love in the hard moments.
Such an easy thing to say yet such a hard thing to do.
Choose love in the hard moments.
It’s Lent and for this first time in my life I am failing miserably at what I gave up, probably because what I gave up is not as important as what I should be adding in. So I am adding in more love specifically in the hard moments. More patience when I am prone to frustration. More forgiveness and more understanding.
I am choosing love when a child disregards a house rule over and over again.
I am choosing love when a child talks back or acts rude.
I am choosing love when a child is mean to a sibling.
I am choosing love in the hard moments when I am overwhelmed and just need cooperation, because how can I ask others to treat me better than I treat them.
Since I can’t write it everywhere I am instead wearing this bracelet to remind me to have patience with those I love. Use code SPIRIT and it is just $11.95 with free shipping.