I have talked about my issues with depression and Graves Disease before and I always struggle with sharing, should I or shouldn’t I. On one hand I don’t want to be that person, you know the one who is always moaning about how hard life is. My life is not hard, it is quite amazing actually and here is why…
1. I have 4 BEAUTIFUL, SMART and KIND little girls who bless me daily.
2. I have a husband who LOVES me NO MATTER WHAT. He loves, supports and more, I am so so so blessed by him.
There are many other reason that I have an amazing life but those 2 are the most important and they are what I cling to when I am drowning…
When my depression hits it creeps in slowly and always catches me by surprise, I have no idea how depressed I am until it is bad, on the other hand my husband sees it immediately and for that I am so grateful. Luckily for me my depression is purely medical and can be fixed with a medication adjustment. I have no thyroid so my hormones are taken through a tiny little pill called Synthroid and I am HIGHLY SENSITIVE which unfortunately means even the slightest change can throw me out of whack and I need a new prescription. Finding that new number is often hard, too hard and well it is currently still not right and hasn’t been for several weeks.
The longer I am off the worse I am and I also develop eye problems, it’s a crazy mess and I hate it. There are usually tears, yelling and lots of naps….
I think we have found my new dosage finally, I take the first round tomorrow and will know for sure then. I am really looking forward to resurfacing from my fog and getting my life back on track, the house is not pretty when I am depressed. I am still not 100% sure why I am sharing this but I guess the real reason is support for those who like me have Graves Disease or really any thyroid problem, one that cause bouts of depression.
When I was first diagnosed with Graves Disease my husband and I did lots of research, there is a high divorce rate when someone has Graves, I am not surprised at all my husband is a saint dealing with all my crazy, but he is also my rock and what keeps me on track. He is my depression warning the one who sees it at the very beginning and helps me to see it too so we can fix it quickly…. I AM SO LUCKY!
If you are suffering from depression I hope you have a great support system like I do, if not know that I am here, I might be a crazy mess myself but even at your most isolated moment you are never alone.
*UPDATE: Thanks for all of your kind words and prayers I am day 3 on what I believe is the right dosage and feeling like myself again!